I am at the Hecla Island Oasis resort. I have made a video blog of it, but the internet set up is making it next to impossible to upload the video, so I"ll just give a short update.
I am on day 5 of the 60 day "he-tox" and today I got the "I'm so dissappointed in you" email from "him". It was so hard to NOT contact him yesterday on his birthday. OMG. But I know that to have what I want in life, I really need to stick to my guns on this. The email was a short one, and it said that there is a bigger email to come. *sigh*. Due to the tone of this short one, I'm expecting to be lambasted. Well, I guess that's a far cry from my fantasy of him apologising to me, and asking if we can talk things out. Perhaps, if he were to ask that, I should still impose the remainder of the 60 days, in order to break free from that unhealthy-ness part of our relationship so that I don't get sucked into this dysfunction once again.
He chose to distance himself from me for such a LONG time... what did he expect would happen as a result of that? Sheesh... I don't hate the guy, I'm actually just really disappointed in HIM as well... and I really want to be in relationship with someone who wants a real relationship with me. Is that too much to ask?
This blog is about being honest and real about life and the circumstances it brings. What is shared here is not always pretty, but it is genuine. I may use some curse words and I may speak “Christian” just to warn y'all. Life sure isn't perfect. It's pretty damn messy. Yet, in the midst of that mess, there is life, hopes, dreams, love, friends and COFFEE! So, grab a cup of java and settle in, we are gonna hang out together for a bit.
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